Isn't it funny...

I am at once stressed, excited; nervous, but happy. I have so much going for me, and I can see that. When I'm not swamped; drowning in my own work. And there's a lot of it.

People keep telling me " why are you doing so much?" But I just don't feel like I'm doing enough. Have I found the wrong clubs, the wrong major? Is that why I'm not truly fulfilled, because I'm not in the right area...but that can't be it. Because when I think about it, I know that this is what I'm supposed to do. What I want to do.

I get to spend Mom's birthday with her tomorrow, and that makes me very happy. I also finished my new proposal, which I'm excited about (I have my HEART behind it). I am half-way through the next chapter in history, and I actually DID my philosophy homework instead of in class.

However, I have a Chinese Test tomorrow. Luckily, I have all day tomorrow to work on it. During classes (yeah, I shouldn't do that...); I'm going to study instead of go to work tomorrow; and getting up early to study. I have some of the the workbook to finish too, but it's only some translations, and not even a lot of those. I'll probably do that tonight before hopping into bed.

I need to keep praying to God that I'm on the right track, and to give me strength. I know that I can do this, that I do better as the semester goes along, and that I can get the MidTerm.

I just keep getting so scared too. Scared enough that it's hard to breathe sometimes.