Resume padding?

I'm afraid that when people look at my resume and they see the things I've done, they think I'm just padding my resume. They think that I'm just saying I'm in all these things, or if I'm actually in them, that I don't do much.

I don't feel like I'm doing enough though.

I don't know what to do though. I feel like I'm at a total loss, because frankly, I have no idea what to do. I want to be one of these people that invokes change and makes people go "wow!" and to feel like I've accomplished something.

But I don't feel like I'm doing that. I feel like I'm not doing anything important. That I go to meetings, and sit there and I'm not one of those people that actually do anything.

How can I be considered for the Pickering, or the Truman, or anything when I don't feel like I've accomplished anything. Ok, well, I've accomplished something, but it's not enough. It's not enough.

I'm looking at other scholarships - and it doesn't look too good. I'm tired of scholarships.

Did you know the Rhodes need 8 letters of recommendation?! That's insane!

I feel like I know what I want to do with my life, but at the same time, I don't. I know I want to help people: but how? International Development? Well then, shouldn't I be going to Uganda or some African country or to Thailand or something like that.

How can I change the world? How can I be special, be someone, in this sea of humanity?